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i did nothing but post tiktoks and draw. heres my drawings.

p hey world. so last night i created a muship titkok right before i fell asleep. muship is my favorite vocaloid producer of all time so i wanted to promote more songs of his instead of letting him be a 2 trick pony.
i'd say its been a a success so far? im not sure. idk tiktok virality ngl. cuz i dont use it.
i also worked on my speech a lil bit. i am really stressed over that, cuz all i can think about is posting more muship stuff instead of focusing on my school assignments. sigh. this fucking chungus life. heres pics of the day, some art if u want to peak♡
i love u.

hello everynyan! i feel quite useless today. i was going to visit my cousin bc her dog died but i got stressed and forgot to go! i applied to the uni i really want to go to (ACCEPT ME PLS PLS PLSPLS) and my car is fucking up again!! i lost half my gas today but i only drove to my school! THIS IS SO FUCKED!
i also ate a lot today oopsie daisy. the vanilla bread in our kitchen is just too irresistible to not eat.... wasnt able to take my dog to the dog park today.. or for the past week. i feel rlly sad cuz im not taking him im sorry baby. your fathers fuckinf useless. useless useless useless.
anyways i changed what ocs im using for the gamejam OOPS. my first idea for the game jam got too complicated soo.. scratches head.. i dont have enough time to finish if i went with the first idea. so im going to use my furry ocs now! i'll post pictures of them another day~
oh yes i also feel myself becoming less chronically online? i think the blog is working! or its that im so stressed i just dont have time to get on my phone... sighhh.. idk... heres pictures of the day, its some art i havent posted anywhere!
i love u everynyan. I LOVE YOU SO FUCKINF MUCH

nothing special about my morning, hung out with friend for a bit cuz one of our classes got cancelled. and then today at the afterschool program i volunteer at i finally had the chance to help a kid with their homework. AFTER 3 WEEKS OF VOLUNTEERING!! everytime i go i dont do shit it makes me feel useless😭😭 but today the director was like You. *insert whatever name you use for me*, i have a project for you. my heart stopped. FINALLLYYYYYYYY!! though the kid i was helping was a 3rd grade who had to practice his handwriting cuz it was god awful. i have no hope for gen alpha. get them off that tikky tok!
feel a lil bad now cuz ive been working on the sprites for the gamejam and i dont like how theyre turning out!! might have to redo hours of work... also my cousins dog died! IM SO SAD! pics of the day anyways here , sighsdramatically.

woke up at 12 pm and my daddy got mad at me cuz i didnt eat anything before going to work WAHHHHH!! its ok easy day today at work cuz im in fitting room YESS. ok i just broke my nail by accudently hitting the fittinf room drawer. ok wtv. MY DAY BECAME SO MUCH BETTER CUZ MY CUTE COWORKER BROUGHT HER DOG TO WORK TODAY EYS EYE YESS. its the cutest tiny poodle ever. i wanna be her friend so bad!! but i lowk embarrassed myself cuz i said her name wrong in front of her brother GIRL IM SO SORRY. pls dont snitch on me brother...
hung out with my friend for her bday and i think i might start going to punk shows in my city! though i have to see what its like first, if i dont like im leaving :p no pics of the day~ i miss my mom tho cuz i was out all day :"3
also started watching yolo crystal fantasy again, its funnier than smiling friends imo

ok i felt really sad today cuz i called out for no reason today. my brother who lives 3 hours away came to visit today to tell my parents that he was having a baby. i was hoping to see some fighting lowk 😞😞💔 lost 70 dollars today...
i didnt do work at all, didnt finish speech assignment thats due tmr night, and didnt work on gamejam today. maybe. day isnt over but it feels like it has cuz its 6 pm and its pitch black outside. and im going out to eat barbecue with my family to celebrate my brothers baby. so i hope to work on smth at least. i slept in until 1 pm, watched youtube for an hour and then slept for an hour until 4 pm. living life like im unemployed and have no aspirations 😭😭
i ate too much fucking food my stomach hurts so bad.
OK NOW I SERIOUSLY WANNAA KMS CUZ I REALIZED I TOTALLY FUCKED MY CRESIT SCORE OH MY GODDD MY DADS GINNA FUCKINF KILL MEEEEE I FUCKING HATE LIVING HERBEHENEENE
no pics of the day i need to die genuinely.
relapsing in my dirtyass bathroom and listening to muship instead of finishinf my homework and freaking out over my credit score, life rlly do be liek dat.

hello world, its i, joseph/milk/hichuw/nao/pozole/cage//stupidfuckingdog. i go by many names, cuz i have identity issues plus i never tell my mutuals my name so they make one up for me sometimes.
i made a blog on the whim cuz i miss twitter *cries* but i really shouldnt have cuz i have a loottt of school assignments to do, need to apply to universities, and i need to work on my game for a game jam (no information on that for now, its private!)
i also wanna work on my milgram ocs but erm, scratches head, im having a hard time developing their lore so lets ignore it. i wanna do a lot of things but i just have no motivation or time. im a hard worker, yk? i started writing this entry while i was taking over fitting room's break (i work at tj maxx) so many dont think i would do a good job at work, but trust me bro, they need me to stay afloat. im tj maxx's number 1 employee. im now writing this while im on break. yay!
but when i get home i have a lot of responsibilities to do. im writing a speech about banning the breeding of flat-faced dogs, and i havent started doing shit for it at all. fuck my baka life. everythings my fault.
i also started hanging out with ppl more, sorta. im on a break now, cuz im suicidal! idk i realized my friends were kinda shitty but tbh im shitty too. i also feel in love with a beautiful twink while i was gone (he isnt beautiful tho, nor a twink, and i didnt fall in love. ive only fallen in love one time. i dont miss u dana FUCK YOU!!!)
ive just been feeling really sad. everyone at work know im autistic now, which makes me very insecure but i try to ignore it lawls, and i keep thinking about my dogs dying, and i lowk got ptsd and im nonbinary but it dont rlly matter rn cuz i have a job. wahhh. do u guys like me???? say yesss, love u .
ok work is done. i hung out with my friend for a but afterwards and i bought my doggie some clothes. i also bought cookout cuz i fucking love cookout mmmmmm processed burgers... my fav food.... cookout feels like it would be illegal asf in england or smth LOL. im sad again cuz i actually have work on my speech. i might work on my game jam afterwards... im a sad pathetic dog... aruu... aru.. anyways heres a picture of my dog. cute right? hes old. im scared of him dying now. NYAA A!!!!! DONT DIE BABY NYAAAA!!! also i lied i ended up working on this website more mwahaha, imma feel sooo bad about this later cuz i have more important things to do ehehehehehe..... i wanna add a pictures of the day for each entry so watch out for them oomfies.. i love uuuu...............